aHHHH..mY fuTurE is IN mY HEad,,,

currently.. this matthew sweet song.. come to california is stuck in my head.. not an interesting lyrics.. but the melody sure is.. it makes me think a lot on my future.. it cant be helped.. i'm 20.. and hasnt achieve anything in my life yet.. i know, its normal 4 sumone my age to stil be studying.. they said its for mi propio futuro.. mi propio bien.. and mi familia.. but cant i just skip all that and go to the top indeed?? i want it.. but thats the mind of a horodious cow ofcourse,, i'm running to be a rock star.. i'll run till i'm there.. theres no regret.. no turn back.. and no loosing face.. a coward will never make it.. uhrg, who am i fooling.. and what am i joking about.. going home less than a week from now.. cant wait..but.. the battle must be finished!! computer organisation, wait for me killer!! i'll show u who rules.. damn!! i'm sure good at pesky words.. hahha.. and urmmm.. did my orga lecturer just pass me by and said.. "hah! study la sangat.. study la sangat.." did he? did he? did he? yaiiiiiii... i will get a gud mark on orga sir... errrrr.. i will try?? i will!!!! trust me..:P hahha^^

woo.. this one.. boring!!!

heY buZy, aRe u tRyinG tO kiLL mE??!!!!!

its been quite some time i did not updated my blog.. been kinda busy all along the way.. with tests, assignments, projects, presentations and exam which is around the corner.. how many day left?? yai!!!! scary!! been so tired too.. spending too much time at the lab finishing the PLC project which due this saturday!! omg, all this is driving me crazy.. and about this moving house thing.. aigoooo...... the skinny me will become skinnier.... whats the worse that i can be.. an anerox?? no!!!!!...... i cant make a living with that.. haha.. just kidding.. but with all the dramas and realities that i've been facing, i still got some time to watch my fav drama series.. lie to me and ghost whisperer.. too great until i'm willing to sacrifice few hour of my sleep that i value so much.. well, i guess its ruin me.. lack of sleep make it hard for me to concentrate on the lecturing.. my body become weak, and my brain didnt get enough oxygen to make my eye stay open wider to see my lecturer infront or the writing on the white board itself.. well, i've realize that now.. so that would mean, no more my sexy girl melinda gordon a.k.a jennifer love hewitt for now.. off till i'm done with my final-killing-so-bad exam.. i better make sure i do as i said.. so hard looo...... hey!! the nature is calling, so long for now!

sOoo sTupiD La u aLL nihHH...puihhh!!!

everything went just rite until last nite.. shocking lab date that due next week!!!!! u got to be kidding me... and final exam's date that was suppose to end at 19th of December changed to 21th???!!! hell, thats crazy.. since my allowance for November is all gone (for buying my ticket back to Sabah ofcoz!!).. haha! and the closed conversation between us students with those stupid representative from @#%%# this morning that suppose to be our problem solver turns out acting selfishly by putting all the blame back to us.. hello??? we wont tell u our problems if we can solve them all by ourselves.. we're the students here.. i'm asking for our right!! ahaha.. as if i'm brave enough to speak all my minds in front of hundreds students that present there.. well, enough on that.. it wont get me anywhere anyway.. missing my sweet slave ahles ian and seli.. will call them later la.. rite now i need to think of sumthing to do.. reading maybe??.. hurm.... zzzzZZZZZZZZ

ruNNing Out oF tHings tO saY?????eWwwwwww...

sumtimes things become so unclear.. me me me and me!! uhrg!! i want to change.. no more games.. reduces facebooks.. dont let all the useless crap bothering my head.. and i'm being quit a sleeping head lately.. sleep early and wake up late..:P
wont it be great if i'm as brilliant as Einstein or anyone that have success in every way.. yarkk!! not in a million years! oh yeah,i finally get my old hair style back.. i will never ever ever ever cut my hair like that again! i'm looking forward for a better hair cut in the future.. but i need to wait until my hair is long enough.. or else, my dad will kill me if he saw me with short hair again this semester break.. beside that, my darling wish to see me with long hair.. i surely doesn't want to disappoint him.. i'll look ugly in long hair, but i'm sure he wont care.. *wink* i look back to some of the photograph of mine taken during highschool, this thought came into my mind.. "eww, was that really me? how can i let myself look that ugly??!!" ahaha.. the memories of me and my long hair has become a legend in my life.. i'll never let that be 'me' again.. shhhh, dont let my mummy know this.. cuz she's the only one that think i look cute with that long curly hair.. but after all, i still miss everything i have back then.. i miss my mummy, my daddy.. and the three sweet slave of mine.. ahlesz, ian and seli.. i used to be the their babysitter.. cleaning the house, cooking, and taking care of them.. how close we are.. now i'm miles away.. and its been 10 months since i last go home.. i'm a strong girl.. i'll be home again this semester break, wait for me!!!!